Reusable Cloth Menstrual Pads or NOT MESSY, FELLS COMFY – WOO HOO! For my HOO HOO!

I’ve been investigating the use of reusable cloth menstrual pads.  After reading that disposable pads have only been around for the last 50 years or so, I wondered what women were doing about their monthly blood flow before that. I’ve grown up with the whole “throw it away” treatment of handling my period and it’s expensive. Like REALLY expensive. I just took it as par for the course and I don’t know why I waited so long to really pay attention to cloth pads, but to each in their own time with realizations right?

Over the past few years I’ve been reading up on sustainability, recycling, re-using, up-cycling and buying local.  The use of cloth pads really aligns with this. A lot of women have given me the “EW” response and I didn’t share this or even write this blog post for approval. I guess I wrote it just to share my own experience with it. I am not trying to convert anyone on this topic.

Washing blood out of the pad. There I said it. Blood. So the fuck what. It’s from my body and no one is touching it but me. No I don’t play with/in it (but if people do with their own that’s their business) and as much as blood from injury makes me woozy for some reason my monthly cycle doesn’t freak me out. That’s a good thing considering that fainting every day for a week out of each month would be a major pain in the ass. I’m kinda laughing right now at that thought.

I like that the pads I’ve tried are made by independent mom/pop businesses. I tried a local to me maker in Oregon and then ordered a few more from out of state. Originally I wanted to buy as local as possible but what I tried locally wasn’t comfortable for me. The made close to me pad was too thick for my comfort and while the construction of it was good I didn’t like the width or the way it felt at bit too stiff and didn’t lay well in my underwear. If I feel like I’m two again and carrying a load I just have to say no. No one wants that. Well I don’t anyways.

So instead of going over deeply the brands I don’t like I’m going to focus on the ones that I do like and work for me.  First off everything I ordered was for a heavy flow. I don’t think I need it the majority of the time but I’m not trying to be leak-o-matic all over the place ok?

Surprisingly the heavy flow options are available in thin pads from the makers I chose. A lot of review and commentary on them have been that these cloth pads have been out for a while and feed back has lead to a more thin pad. YAY me for getting in on this late *ha*.

The first pad I tried is made by YURTCRAFT on Etsy and I really like them. It has a bamboo core which is super absorbent. I read how absorbent bamboo is but I just didn’t believe it till I tried it myself. The top cover is cotton and it’s comfortable and soft. The backing is wind pro polyester fleece and it stays in place with a simple snap. You can check out their stuff with the link I provided.

As far as how it feels, it actually feels more gentle than a disposable pad does to me. I never questioned the feel of disposables. In fact in most of my adult like I’ve used tampons but I am seriously tired of them. Just done. This cloth pad has quickly replaced any want to use a tampon.

The other cloth pads that I’ve tried and like immensely are the pads made by PUNKYPADS1 over on Ebay

This pad also has cotton as the top layer of the pad with a water resistant fleece backing. In addition to the fleece this maker (PUNKYPADS1) uses a layer of PROCARE on the bottom of the interior core (which is made with terrycloth). PROCARE is a waterproof barrier fabric and it adds a level of security for the prevention of leakage.

BOTH pads worked out great for me. Even without PROCARE the YURTCRAFT pads were super absorbent (due in good part I believe by the bamboo absorbancy). Even though many reviews said that the fleece backing is highly water resistant I was still very pleasantly surprised that it worked for keeping everything dry and leak-proof in both the pads.

I had tried two additional pads but my issues with them always came back to the thickness of the pad being a bit too much, so I have to say nay to those ones. Ultimately I think I’d like to try my hand at making my own – they are pretty easy to construct. Both the makers for the pads I like are out of state. I’d like to do some more looking and see if there isn’t someone closer to Seattle that makes them.  My whole aim is to move to an alternative that is less costly and more environmentally friendly so I’m trying to stay away from the more commercial reusable pads (which are also pricey) that are out there .

As far as the whole hand washing handling of the pads…if you’ve had a period and have had to wash your own underwear because shit got crazy in your pants, it’s the same thing as that. I couldn’t help laughing with all the EWWW posts because I don’t know of any woman with a period who hasn’t had to deal with the whole wash the chonies thing.  I hand wash the pads to keep the staining issue at bay and then toss them in the washing machine and then into the dryer. The care for cloth pads is easy and they last in general for about five years before needing to be replaced.

There are TONS of reviews on line for all types of cloth pads as well as on YOUTUBE. I watched and read many before making my initial investment. I also read up on each maker repeatedly before choosing who to try first. To be “safe” I tried them out at home in the evenings when my cycle came up. So far so good. Next up for me is to slowly build up my supply. The patterns and designs are varied and pretty fun. Some are just flat out funny. I saw some for sale on Ebay that had Disney princesses which cracked me up to no end. LOLS.


*Please note that I bought all the pads that I wrote about in this blog post. I have not been given anything in compensation for my thoughts and opinions on these products. All thoughts and opinions are my own and based off of my own experience.*


So I went for a follow up at the doctors yesterday. I had my arteries checked out and everything lines up in the SATISFACTORY section but there is early detection of plaque and stenosis (artery thickening). It’s all early warning stuff meaning I have plenty of time to get it right. It’s a preventative thing they did with me and with the health struggles that run in my family it’s a good thing to have checked out. So I asked what I could do to get healthy and my doctor said I’m already on that path.

I’ve mentioned before how I have changed my eating and activity. I walk AT LEAST 10,000 steps a day and I cut out bread, rice, root veggies, noodles type stuff. Well it’s paying off. I dropped another two pounds and the doctor took me off of one of two blood pressure medications I’m on. The glimepiride that was cut down to only once per day was halved again so now I’m just taking a half tablet of the stuff. One more medication off the table and I’m hoping in the next month or so I can take off glimepiride as well.

Although Sean isn’t diabetic and can eat things I obviously shouldn’t eat anymore I’ve decided to start cooking even more healthy and encourage his health improvement along with mine. All the things I’m doing are things he has encouraged me to do from the time we met and over time I just haven’t done it…till recently. The way I eat everything. I feel strongly about having influenced not the best eating habits and now I’m looking at reversing that significantly.

I love him very much and want to share the benefits I’m experiencing with him. He’s my everything.

Update posts to follow. Right now I’m just beyond stoked. I’ve been eating in “phase one” for a little over a month and I think I’m going to stay here a bit longer. I like what I’m seeing. Phase two and three are still waiting for me in the wings and I look forward to that but for now I still have a lot of stuff to accomplish.



Weekend at the Tiny House <3

Everyone who was there before us refers to our tiny home as “The Gingerbread House” and Sean kinda likes that. I’ve been referring to it as Tiny Tardis in my own head (and it DOES feel much bigger on the inside). I honestly don’t think it matters much. Usually when I talk about the house with Sean I call it the Tiny House. It’s all good.

So we spent the weekend there and I love it. The house moves with the waves and usually I don’t notice it too much because I feel like move with the house, it’s like breathing to me. If I’m totally still and sitting or laying down sometimes I will feel the waves but other than that I’m pretty wave friendly.

Sean found me a pair of house shoes to use/keep there as climbing up the ladder hurts the feet (it’s just a tough industrial type ladder and our tootsies are tender). I loved sleeping in and waking up to the sounds of the marina and even though it was a bit chilly (as we opted to not turn on the space heater) it was fabulous and warm under the covers – SO GOOD. Quiet and as others around us woke up I took in the sounds of boats and people and it was just…nice.

Sean and I made a trek out to PDX and looked around. We also hit up IKEA and checked on size and pricing for futon mattresses. I think we found what we were looking for and may pick those up in the next trip or so up there. We have the pull out couch but we really want to use that as the couch and save it for company that may come over.

We went and checked out the town strip over by our place and OMG there are a few AWESOME antique stores – one of them is a vendor mall! I’m so going to be going back (AND IT’S RIGHT BY OUR HOUSE!). Found a blue brooch and a bracelet :) Sean found a small stained glass piece for the window so we picked that up too. SO CUTE. There was a very large antique place that we skipped. The next time we are down I’m looking forward to checking that one out as well as going back to the other stores. We can go into PDX whenever we want for thrift store/antique looking, but it’s nice to have stuff literally around the corner from where we live. The next thing I want to find out about is the bus lines that go in and out of our town. I haven’t seen anything so that’s something I need to Scooby-Doo.

While at the Tiny House I took some window measurements and I’m thinking of curtains for one of the downstairs side windows and one of the windows at the top of the ladder heading to our bedroom loft. I love all the light we get in but for night/privacy times I’d like to have the curtains available. I took another look at the loft space and it’s MUCH more spacious than I remembered. This has me pretty excited. It’s not cramped feeling at all and there are a few spots for setting up a spot for folded clothing. SWEET. There is also space enough for a small craft corner. A spot for my yarn and I’m seriously thinking for sewing. I don’t need a large space and the things I make will be smallish so yeah. Pretty excited :)

The thing I took away this time on our way back from Tiny House is that whenever we come back from staying there I always want to downsize more of my stuff. SERIOUSLY. So I need to go through a bag or so of stuff I have gathered and see if I can’t pair that down. Went through my bathroom stuff and got that squared away so now to clear off the kitchen table so I have a place to sort <3




One month and catching up!

So it’s been a little over a month since my last post. I’ve spent most of my online-time on FB and Twitter, updating here and there. I’m very happy with the results of my eating changes. No bread, cooked root veggies (except raw carrots) rice or flour based noodles (no noodles right now and I haven’t started experimenting with alternative noodle stuff though I know it’s out there)  and refined sugars (specifically dessert type stuff/sweets).

A year ago I started working at the thrift store. Working in their donation center had me lifting and moving stuff all day and in 6 months I had dropped about 20 lbs. I changed departments and now work on the sales floor and that had me dropping another 10 lbs. I do so much walking back and forth all day long it’s nice to be able to top my 10k step a day goal. I usually do between 12-17,000 steps a day depending on how busy we are and how much they have me standing still behind the register. Usually it’s pretty balanced with floor vs register and I always make my goal of 10k at work – no problem.

I had settled at the weight of 200 lbs as of January 2014. I had a few off days due to not stepping enough on my days off and because I was getting repetitive in my eating in the past month (same o same o and trying to substitute stuff because I wasn’t giving myself enough time to prep fo0d) I had hit a plateau. Well I said fuck that noise and did a reboot. Basically just said START AGAIN to myself and I’ve been getting the stuff I need and I’ve dropped a few more pounds. I’m almost feeling like the majority of this success is my state of mind.

OK in review it’s been an amazing month. In the first week I cut my insulin intake in HALF. HALF. By the end of the second week and conferring with my doctor (who is SO AWESOME BTW) I have been off of insulin ENTIRELY. The Glimepiride dosage I was taking to work with the Metformin I’m taking was also cut in HALF. I am beyond stoked. (That’s right – I said STOKED)

So this no sugar, bread, root veggie or noodles thing hasn’t really been that hard. I thought I’d have trouble quitting ice cream (because DUDE I love you ice cream!) but it wasn’t. Once and a while I really REALLY crave the chocolate but I’ve been ok for the most part. I’m now solidly maintaining a weight of 198 lbs and I’m going to be working more with my steps (specifically on my days off when they hella drop) and see if I can’t lose some more weight. Ultimately I’d like to weigh about 175lbs.  maybe 160lbs. but I don’t want to go lower than that. I don’t want to feel bones is where I’m at with my weight loss.

Since my accident at work last year where I had to go into rehabilitation for my arms (tendonitis) I’ve strengthened the muscles up and though I still have twingy days when I’ve lifted too much clothing (carrying hand fulls of clothes on hangers to put back on the racks) it’s not bad like it used to be and I do the stretches. When needed I have both work and sleep braces to get myself back in good order. I’m truly at a point where I feel good about working with small hand weights to actually tone up my arms and I’ve started doing my squats again to tone up my butt and legs because OMG I can see where I’ve lost the weight there and some toning is in order LOL.

All my size 16 pants that I got a few months ago are now loose on me just a little. Enough to warrant me wearing my Thunder Cats belt that I FB’d about. This is cool. What’s NOT cool is the belt is now a smidge too big, though the bulk of it is helping to keep the pants on my hips just a little. That help is soon to go out the window though if I end up losing even two more pounds but that’s ok. This is the reason to get my self a belt next pay period that I’ve been eying:

So there’s that – the good and meh but it makes me smile.

I cleared out my side table the other night and have not piled or set anything on it. Tonight I clear out the chair and do the same thing with it. No more stuff stacked on it. This is going to be a big challenge for me. I’m so used to just setting my stuff on there. I have a box of satin dresses to go through in my room too. My Aunt’s gave them to me so what I’ve decided to do is deconstruct them and then roll up the fabric for when I decide what exactly I want to make with them. I’m thinking a few skirts and some shrugs. I’m not 100% yet though. I have a large sewing basket/box and it doesn’t have much in it. I’m wondering if the fabric will fit in there. I’m considering getting it in a bag and sealing it up for storage and making it part of my TO GO box. My goal is to only have two bins of “stuff” that I move with me to the Tiny House. We will see what actually happens with this particular goal…

In thinking of ways to save money I’ve decided to try out cloth menstrual pads. I’ve got a few on order and I’m looking forward to checking them out. I’ve made a point of trying three different small at home based businesses. One maker is  from Oregon,  one from MI and the other is from Texas.  I have one that’s already arrived so that makes a total of three for next month. I’m thinking it’s going to be a good thing. I will be mixing in their usage with the last of my store bought supplies on hand.  A lot of people get squirmy with the lady stuff but honestly I’m like WHATEVS. It’s my pocket book and I’ve just been cringing over paying for the tampons and pads the last 6 months. That shit is expensive…and I actually DO think about all that crap going into landfills. I wish I had given it more thought sooner but now is as good a time as any. Once I decide what materials work/feel best to me I’m going to try my hand at making my own.  Others can do and chose how they want to work with their menstrual cycle I’m cool with other people doing what’s best for them – this is for me though and I’m just at the point of wanting to try something different and more earth friendly. Yeah yeah I know I know – I’m a damn hippy. LOLS

Once we transition to living full time in the Tiny Home I anticipate having lots of extra time on my hands and when I’m not doing stuff with Sean I’m thinking about all the crafty stuff I want to do and sewing and jewelry making is one of them. I’m pretty excited about it. I am going to be taking a few classes next month too – get my skill sets in order LOL.

During my time off I’m going to get another bag of donation stuff together to take with me to work next week. I’m hoping to find some of my belongings that I haven’t been able to locate for a while but we’ll see if they turn up. I have a sinking suspicion that I donated them some time ago and just don’t remember or did it on accident. This was before getting the job at the thrift store. I’ll be bummed if I did that and again – time will tell.

Today while zooming around Sean got me a pair of water proof boots that also withstand the cold of SNOW :) Because we got them in person at a the Outdoor Emporium in Seattle that cut out any shipping costs and they were on sale. After comparing prices online we saved over $20.00 and that is always good! I tried them on and they were so comfy. The weather keeps going COLD/WARM and so I can still use them a bit till spring/summer really hits and then pack them away for next winter. I’m hoping they last me a few years at least. My last boots lasted two full years. Because of the rain I ended up using them off and on year round. I think that’s pretty good.

I feel like I keep repeating myself a bit between blog posts here and social  media updates. I’m in go mode though so that’s to be expected. I keep going down the mental check list of things I need/want to do and this blogging is a way to check in with that.

I looked at some pics of me that were taken when I first tried on my wedding dress last year. I see the difference in weight loss. It’s kinda tripy. I’m noticeably thinner than I was last year at this time. I’ve gone from being concerned to being curious about what my dress will look like when it’s done being fitted and tailored. It shouldn’t be too hard to fix, but still I’m wondering if I will need to have a corset panel set up in the back or if they can just bring it in on the sides. I’m hoping for having it brought in on the sides :)

Annnd that’s about it for the ramble-bits.

Love you guys XO

“Metabolism Revamp” or “HELLS NO I DON’T EAT THAT ANYMORE!”

I went back for my one month follow up with my doctor this morning. With my medications back on track this past month I still find that my glucose levels are not down to where they  need to be. Though I crashed my glucose levels a few times at work it hasn’t balanced out. I feel a lot of it has to do with my activity level lessening at work and not being out and about as much with the winter weather. It’s not the only thing though. I’ve been wrestling with my carb intake and I mean I’ve been trying to gauge what the right amount of carbs are right for me, for my body and how my own body chemistry works.

When I say “carbs” I’m thinking bread, pasta, rice, potatoes. I feel like it’s been a constant fight and so many times I wanted to just say “FUCK THIS SHIT I’M NOT EATING ANY OF IT!” but my fear is crashing from having my glucose levels too low. I look at what I eat and how much of it and then think “UGH but if I didn’t eat any of that bread (or rice or pasta) I would have probably had fast levels!”

My doctor has talked with me about changing my eating but I wasn’t getting exactly what she meant. I was working on moderation and not really grasping what she was talking about in terms of diet change. She had recommended a book for me and it was one of those things I put on my list that I never got around to.

So this morning I talked with my doctor and she got very specific with me which is what I needed and she said “You do not need those carbs (bread, pasta, rice) to live. You NEVER have to eat those again.” I burst into tears. The tears caught me off guard. Of all my reactions to hearing this crying wasn’t one of them. I know that there are carbs and natural sugars in all food but I wasn’t putting it together. Get the carbs needed from fruits and veggies but the other foods (breads, pasta, rice) just cut them out. I felt like an incredible weight had been lifted off of me. I slowed up on the tears and talked about the frustration I’ve been having trying to balance my fear of crashing my glucose levels and eating right and eating enough.

I attained controlled diabetes last year. I know this is not impossible. I’m thankful and feel lucky in that my doctor is geared to work me off of all my medication entirely. I need to up my physical activity and I have changed my food intake. It felt like a quiet out pouring of “FINALLY”. I had gone in without eating since my glucose levels were so high this morning and when I got home I made myself some scrambled eggs with spinach and dill. Some Gouda on top.  I’m actually full and it was delicious.

I’m seeing my doctor in a month and I’m recording my morning glucose levels and I have fantastic DO NOT EAT and EAT THIS lists so there is no guess work involved. The list is too long to list here but basically no more bread, pasta, rice, beans etc. Sounds radical but it’s really not – to me. I’m still a meat eater and veggies and fruit are on the menu. I’m being ware of  the types of meat, fruit and veggies I’m taking into my body though.

I’m picking up a new pedometer since I lost my old one. I’ve been wracking my brain trying to remember what I did with  my old pedometer but I honestly think I just lost it somewhere. I’m also picking up the book my doctor recommended me – she follows the eating in it and she is very healthy and energetic and this is where I want to be. Dr. Grundy’s Diet Evolution is the name of the book.

My doctor talked to me about the book last year but it looks like it’s right now that I’m starting this. I need to make a grocery list and hit the store later today. I don’t need a butt load of stuff. Sean actually just picked up a bunch of veggies and meats that are aligned with this new eating so that’s a great bonus :)

I’m hopeful. I’m only taking 10 units of insulin right now and with an increase of physical exercise and the new eating I’m hoping to work my way off of all my medication. This is totally one day at a time. I’m hoping to lose more weight too. I talked with my doctor about weight lifting and she said that walking/steps were the most important but that lifting was great in addition.

What I’m embarking on is changing my body chemistry/metabolism. It’s like clearing out all of the old and setting up a new operating system. I’m really excited. Calm and excited. I feel more like “Ok doing this now.” This is how it is from now on.

It’s a big big change for me. I’m not down playing that at all. I’m just focusing on breathing it in. Solid.

Space re-evaluation, Downsizing & Inventory or IS IT TOO EARLY FOR SPRING CLEANING?

Recently I checked out over 18 books from the library – the majority of them being about cast iron skillet cooking. I found two of them to be well written & information filled so I put them on my AMAZON wish list. Along with the cast iron books I also read two books on weight lifting. I think about lifting a lot but I still have yet to get my ass up and start working out on a regular basis. On the plus side I feel better educated and I got a lot of confirmation on how I gauge  my own body when lifting and exercising.

Over my last two days off I had gathered up all the remaining books that I own and went through them. I ended up selling about half of them. I’ve been pairing down and pairing down. Some of these books were books that I wanted to read and picked up for when I had time, but some of my interest in the topics have waned so after selling a good hunk off I have about 20 books left. 1/3 of my books are knitting, another 1/3 are DYI/sustainable-living type books. The last third of my books are misc interest books. I’d like to get rid of 10 more books but I think the only way that will happen at this point is if I buy them electronically and I’ve not made my mind up about that yet. I may be able to let some more go later on in the year.

My goal is to have all of my belongings fit into a suitcase. Even if I could make it a suitcase and a tub I’d be satisfied. Right now I have two suit cases of yarn (which is bad space wise but good supply wise/not having to spend money on yarn), a tub of “wedding” stuff and a tub of I don’t know what (I forgot). Those are getting looked at this week. I also have miscellaneous stuff around the house and I need to take stock of those items too.

In thinking of ways to create more space I’ve been thinking about all the pictures I have that are from the 110 and 35mm camera days. I need to get these scanned. I don’t want to carry them around anymore in the hard copy form. I don’t have photo albums and honestly I don’t want to make physical photo albums. It takes up so much space.

Because I don’t want a full on wedding photo album,  for my wedding day I’m going to be uploading all the pictures I take to a digital frame to have as my wedding album. Saving space and getting to see all my pictures = WIN. I may do a “Family Album” digital photo frame as well. Right now on my list of things to procure is an external hard drive. I have HELLA stuff saved to a number of flash drives and I’d like to have a centralized place to store them.

Tonight I went through the cupboard and gathered all my Starbucks mugs. I’m deciding which one I’m going to keep and sell the rest. In the kitchen alone I had 9 mugs and I believe I have another three in my bedroom. It’s not that I don’t use my mugs (well I don’t use the ones in my room as I have those for decoration) it’s just that I don’t need 9 mugs to drink my coffee out of. I’m being serious about downsizing my physical belongings so yeah time to get those mugs back out into the world.

I checked two more books out from the library. One is about converting vintage knitting patterns into modern day patterns, yarn substitutes and also re-sizing. It looked very detailed and so I’m starting my reading on that one. The other is another sustainable living book. I have The Moneyless Man and The Moneyless Manifesto to finish up as well. I used to read all the time then stopped and lately I’ve been voracious about it.

All of this is cathartic for me. I’m not sure what I want out of  it all. I just know that I want to live more simply. I want to live in a way that is less wasteful. I want to save more, have a nest egg and I want to create more.  I’m not sure where the create comes into play but the more I clear out the more crafty I feel so maybe it’s that I pick up speed on the knitting and sewing. I don’t feel concerned about it. I feel good about it actually. There’s more I want to write about and I need to save that for another post.


2014 Doctor Who, Doctor Who and Doctor Who.

I basically spent 6pm December 31st 2013 through January 1st 2014 4pm watching Doctor Who with my Mom. Sean was there but doing stuff on the internet and sharing funny stuff as it came up. I’ve been eating all NOM NOM NOM NOM since mid December so after a few weeks of that I feel like I’m done with the over stuffing.

New Years Eve we didn’t have any set plans and decided to stop off at the grocery store and while there thought about inviting my Mom over so that’s what we ended up doing. I was in the mood for hamburgers and so we picked up some ground beef and hamburger buns. I didn’t think about fixings as I was too caught up with the thought of grilling meat. They were kinda plain in that there was not lettuce, tomato or onion but we had the mustard/mayo going on and the spices I put in the meat…it was pretty savory. We had some baked beans and then wrapped it up with some German chocolate cake, bread pudding and mocha almond fudge ice cream.  OOMPH!

Sean picked up some pork chops and asked if I’d be up for making a big breakfast and I said “HELLS YEAH.” so that’s what we had this morning. Pork chops, eggs and toast. It was pretty tasty if I do say so myself. We continued with the Doctor Who marathon and now I’m up to Season 5 episode 10 <3

Dropped Mom off this afternoon and came back home. I got caught up with some laundry and I have work tomorrow. I’m wondering how it’s going to be. Probably busy. I have a few library books that I put on hold and figure I will pick those up after work. Fitness reading. I’m looking to garner some motivation and ways to start changing my health habits and hopefully learn some stuff.

January is here. The next thing I’m looking to is downsizing our stuff. I’ve been maintaining the picked up of our living space but I’m very ready to downsize our stuff. I’ll start with my stuff and then start getting some help with going through the rest of the house. There’s a lot that we just don’t touch. I’m kinda excited about it.

Something I’d like to increase is my blogging activity. I’d like to both increase my blog posts and increase commentary on others blogs. We’ll see how that goes. My focus right now is my improved health and downsizing our stuff. Time to gear up.


T’was 2 days before Christmas…

…Yes yes I am FINALLY posting again. Both not much and TOO much has been going on. Basically life has been zoomin the ZOOM.

Work is going very well. I was approached for supervisor training and the TL;DR is that I’m doing it out of a sense of helping my team – my co-workers but I don’t have a passion for supervisor positions in general. I have a strong passion for someday owning my own business but that is something TOTALLY different and I know this.

Sitting with one of my supervisors while he counted/balanced the morning tills I told him that previously I hadn’t the words for asking what I wanted to know which is “What is it about being a manager/supervisor that moves you – what’s the component of your passion for the position” because obviously there are people who strive for that and I never have. I’ve striven to be the 200% best I can be in my job and to be that solid dependable worker – the grease in the cogs so to speak but never “The Leader”.

While thinking about it I further said “I love analogies and I’ve always seen myself as A Chewbacca to someones Han Solo, A Riker to someones Picard, Spock to A Captain Kirk.” He started laughing but totally got me. I said “Dude…I’m the right hand man and yeah I will fly the ship if I have to but PLEASE take back the controls or I may sound like this: ” and I made a HORRIBLE Chewbacca impression. We both laughed and he then proceeded to shared stuff about his personality type and the past jobs he’s had. I shared that it’s not that I don’t think I can’t do the job (because I TOTALLY can) but while I love coaching and teaching and training others I never really felt moved to pursue managerial type positions. Cross train me as an emergency back up but…yes I’ve embraced that this is happening I’m not struggling against it, I’m in training for a supervisor position. I feel a little rueful. I tried to back out and my other manager lovingly did not let me (I’m totally laughing at myself). Nice try “inner teen” me but there is work to be done and so ya gotta buck up and do it. I work with some REALLY great people so it’s not the hardship I was angsty about a few weeks ago. If I’m lucky someone else will step up that seriously wants it and in the mean time I’m SERIOUSLY lucky to work where and with whom I work and I will do my 200% best job as they train me. I’ve been looking back over the course of my career and I have always landed really good jobs.  I am seriously thankful.

I’ve worked as a receptionist, business admin, real estate admin, medical billing admin (physical therapy) and EVERYTHING was all about customer service – even the retail aspects of my different jobs I’ve had in the past. I used to be a workaholic in my twenties and by mid thirties I was pretty burnt out , so now I am all about the balance and I feel I have that where I am now. Stress is not in my forecast.

So work = GOOD.

Home – we made it through all the WTF BBQ that was WET-MOLD-SINK-O-RAMA 2013 and what we thought was only going to last a few days ended up lasting WELL over a MONTH. First it was the shock of “What the hell was that noise” to discover our hall way closet with the water heater – the ceiling had started to cave in and was molded. A burst water pipe between our roof and the condo above us’ floor was just – just freakin FUBAR ( ).  That lead to the outside walls of the closet being completely torn down, then the flooring torn up and that’s when they discovered possible asbestos and that lead them to tearing up the flooring all the way into the kitchen and oppsie we better take out all the textured ceiling stuff and redo that too. UGHHHH.

I *just* put the tree up today. We were so exhausted by the whole thing. Sean more than me I think. He had to work at home through all this. At least I got to go to work and get out of the house a bit. Having your home space feel invaded though is pretty stressful. I never realized how much something like that could affect a person but it does. Ew. And that’s done with now. SO YAY!!!

Our focus is starting to shift to down sizing what we own. We have so much stuff. I think we will start on that in earnest in the new year. This year for Christmas Anna is with her mom visiting family in the South. My mom is coming over to stay the night Christmas Eve and our celebrating will consist of some t.v. time and snacks :) Christmas Day Mom and I are making up a ham with some cheese potatoes, veggies, yams with marshmallows and some cranberry sauce. Sean’s Mom is coming over too :) We can all sit around and pig out.

This year Sean got me a very WARM and comfy pair of slippers. Sheep skin/wool so toasty. It’s what I really wanted and needed because my feet get so cold at night in the winter. I got that early and that is totally ok. For Sean I got him a new winter coat which he REALLY needed. He loves it and he too got his present early. I don’t need anything or want anything in particular and I think the same can be said for Sean. We tend to get the stuff we need as we need it. Most of what we got is for the kids (Anna and AJ) They are both gone for Christmas which is different but we are going to have them open gifts when they get back :)

I work Christmas Eve but I’m off by 5pm and that’s totally cool. I have Christmas Day off and I’m looking forward to that :)

Pretty much that is what is going on right now. I have some more house work to do. It’s still early. Maybe there will be some time for the internet when I’m done cleanin up. Who am I kidding – there’s always time for the internet LOLS.

Ok gotta jet!


Days off with my meandering mind

I haven’t written lately. There’s not been anything of serious note going on just the day to day and I really REALLY like that. Work is going well. I made the transition from production to operations so I’m in the front of the lines with the general public – RETAIL. I actually like it. As much as people (in general) bitch about retail customer being horrible I’ve been lucky so far to not have encountered too many of those. I like to think that people are better than that and they are. You’re always going to have that one person though but people like that…I don’t let them take my joy of the work I do. SERIOUSLY.

My coworkers are pretty fabulous. LIke all of them. Looking back I feel I’ve been blessed to always land in a place that has the most awesome of coworkers. I’m gushing a bit but I just feel especially thankful today. I think it’s because I feel so mellow and well rested. I’m going to need it though as I have overtime this week and for some reason it’s been NUTS. Like non stop maintaining some semblance of order busy. That’s good for business and I understand that Halloween is the big push instead of Christmas so I suppose that’s to be expected. It’s kinda like an adrenaline rush so I’m kinda anticipating for it to start and looking forward to my end of week.

My sister is coming down on business today and I’m excited for the family to spend some time together.  I miss the kids and B.I.L. but it’s just sis that comes down this way for work training. I got a little something for my nephew since my mom and I are gathering stuff together to send back home for my nieces birthday that wasn’t too long ago. I’m excited for what I’m prepping. Mom and I are going to fill it with stuff but that’s all I’m going to say for right now because as I understand it my 10 yr old niece is savvy on the computer and I’m not sure if she’s at a point of being interested in reading my blog. I’ve blogged stuff for her before I just don’t know if she’s come back. I will post about it after I get confirmation that she’s gotten her present from Aunt Kat and Nanna :D

Today I’m finishing up some dvd stuff for my sister and doing housework in between and cereal LOL. Looking at clearing out and pairing down on my physical belongings through the week. I need to clear out my closet too. I have some stuff I just never wear or touch. I have a bag of garbage to take out and I want t see if I can’t get together another bag of give away to donate.

That’s all for now.


Spending the day with my Hunnah.

Today we had no where to be but wanted to do something and at Sean’s suggestion we started off our day with some coffee and a doughnut over at Top Pot Doughnuts. As we were crossing the street making our way back to the car I hear this guy behind me saying “HEY do you want a doughnut?” When I looked back it was a dad talking to his kid coming out of the business next door. I started laughing and Sean asked me “What?” So I told him I thought that guy was talking to us and was thinking the following:

” 1. Are you talking to me? 2. I don’t know you. 3. I don’t take doughnuts from strangers…”


I HELLA laughed.

We made a drive out to Seattle and tried getting to the Sunday Market in Fremont. We were aware that October Fest was happening and it’s usually crowded on Sundays in Fremont anyways, but what we didn’t realize was that there was some sort of marathon going on and all the places we normally park had been blocked off which made parking unusually bitchy. *ugh* Sean tried for a good long while to find parking and we don’t mind walking a bit and finally it was just too ridiculous so we tried for Ballard. Ballard had a farmers market yet parking was just as fubar over there as it was in Fremont. MEH. I suggested Antique Row in Tacoma and promptly fell asleep and woke up – in Tacoma :)

I love the antique mall/shops that they have there and there are always interesting things to look at but it was kinda empty today. All the business doors said open at noon on Sunday and by 1pm-ish NOTHING. There were a few good shops and I scored a new heated muscle rub that is made locally so I’m trying that later tonight and see how it works for me. Found a small chuck wagon cook book and a hair barrette that looks like a blue poppy type of flower. CUTE.

We stumbled across a new game store in Antique Row (TACOMA, WA) that just opened up about a week ago. They didn’t have business cards yet  but the name I wrote down didn’t pull anything up on the internet so I’m going to do some more looking and when I find out about the business name for sure I will give a shout out. For right now all I have is: Terraceux and I’m hoping I spelled it right and I feel that I did but who knows. Very nice guy and his shop has a window that faces the street so it will be easy to spot for sure :D GO TO ANTIQUE ROW :) VIVA LA GAME SHOPS!

We hit up Kings Books and Atticus the store cat was all about me :) That cat is super cute! I didn’t find anything there but Sean found three books and it was a fun visit. Stopped in at Frisko Freeze for some lunch and then headed back home. This took up most of the day and Sean was a sweetie and stopped in at Value Village for me so I could look for some work tops. They didn’t have anything for me in my size (I was looking for solid black shirts) but I did find two capri jeans and a new with tags long black lane bryant skirt that is super soft and flowy. SCORE. I think I paid about $9 for all three pieces. I’m changing departments at work and I’m looking to update my wardrobe just a little bit. I think my next trip will be to Ross for my tops. I realized that I mostly have Tee’s only. I need to spruce it up a little bit :)

When we got home Sean put away the groceries and I don’t know why I suddenly felt like picking up/cleaning but I did. Our household is pretty relaxed about the state of the house. We all have crafts and hobbies that we do and stuff builds up during the week. I tend to visually block it out and then one day *POP* and it’s time to clear the space. I have my side table that gathers tons of books. Seriously. Then there is the small stool/table that Sean and I keep in front of the couch between us. We mostly use it for our coffee mugs but it too attracts all the small bits. Oi VEH. Aaaand then there is the little pile of mail, books and misc shared stuff that sits between Sean and I ON the couch. I clear this out and straighten it up about once a week. The living room floor and kitchen table usually ends up covered with Anna’s stuff and craft projects that she or Sean starts.

Today that all got re-routed to everyone’s room. The place looks much better. My kitchen still needs help but I will try to get to that later tonight.

With the table cleared I think either tonight or maybe tomorrow morning I’m going to try my hand at applying my “Bride” iron on to my black hoodie. I have a dark pink Old Navy Hoodie that I’ve just about run into the ground. I love their hoodies – they’re so so soft! I need to put the pink one to rest though *laughing*

I also put my bridal tub to use *heh* I have a storage tub and I put all my odds n ends wedding stuff in there. That helped clear up some stuff for sure. I’m keeping it under the kitchen table so I can get to stuff as I need it. Bridal Brooches – I need to start making the brooch flowers SOON :D I really want my bouquet finished and waiting in the wings as opposed to trying to put it together last minute :)

Well…my room is a mess *oh boy* I took all my stuff in there. I am now itching to get in there so I think I will. I’m going to cap myself off at a half hour though. I think i really want to work on my hoodie so I can wear it tomorrow :D

That’s about all for now.